to be cerebral & ultimately faithful

I feel like I lack all things cerebral at this moment.
Spring break is over, and now it's back to business.

All good things are hard earned & I pray I wouldn't forget that I have a purpose in this life.
I live to glorify an authority, a father, a saviour that defines who I am.
I've been living according to my own desires for a while, and I've been careless, selfish, & worldly. I could probably come up with a lot of seemingly logical, understandable excuses that justify my actions, which can work together to make a circumstance that pardons my steps. But the fact of the matter is this. There's no excuse. I've heard the great news, I'm capable of comprehending love as best as God has made possible anthropomorphically, and I've experienced grace.

New struggles have surfaced, and I see God. Why do I forget so often that I'm not blind, I'm not lost. And why do I pretend so often that I can see beyond limits, when in actuality I'm ignoring God's truth... & that's when I really am lost. A beautiful reminder of blind faith. Hebrews 11. "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see." When it comes down to it, I've been faithless. I've forgotten what entitles 'faith' and I've also fooled myself on one too many occasions that I am exercising it. "What is seen was not made out of things that are visible." and "by faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God". 

I'm thankful that God encompasses my life whether I will Him to or not. May I never underestimate my depravity.

To be a woman of action & 
to recognize that my frivolous thoughts lead to short-lived ends & 
that the Lord is my means to His end.